Dear... Listener
My dad hit me sometimes.
He still does. Not as frequently as he did though.
He says it’s because he wants to teach me something. It’s to help me. He wants to make me understand where I’m wrong.
I have never understood it. I still don’t.
Maybe he is right. I need to improve my self. I need to fix me. Or someone does.
I honestly don’t know.
I can’t fight him. Even if I wanted to I know I couldn’t.
He doesn’t hate me. And I truly believe he does not like to hit me.
All the tears I spend are because I know I cannot beat him. I cannot win against him. I never will.
I am frustrated. I want to get far away from here. And make him feel nothing, like he made feel me.
Probably these are not sane thoughts but everybody has something to say and I need to say it. Out loud.
So thank you if you read this. I needed it.