Dear... Me? The Dating Community? To Anyone Who Understands?
I am tired. I am tired of blaming myself. I am tired of looking in the mirror with tears in my eyes saying, "You really thought they were different huh".
I am just tired of it. So... I give up on it. I am done. No more dating sites. No more getting to know them. No more dates. Just me.
And I do hate it. I want to find someone but I am starting to hate myself because of it. I don't like how I look, how I act, nothing. Because I have been told time and time again that they were different, then they proceed to break me. So for now, til the foreseeable future I am giving up on it. I will start to love myself. And I won't hold onto hope even if I really want to.
I will be okay alone. I will be, or at least try to be okay at being alone...