Dear... Brandon
Hey B,
I know how long it’s been. I know you found someone else. I just want you to know that I love you and still care no matter what. It hurts me to see you with her. I’m sorry I couldnt be there for you.
I wish I could be there for you.
I'm sorry that I never told you how I felt.
All the going back and forth with friendship and whatnot. I would do anything for another chance... but that may be out of the question.
I'm always running away from things, that’s true.
You always said I was too hard on myself. I couldn’t see it until I lost you.
Now, I'm here and you're there and distance is our greatest thing.
Distance keeps me from breaking down, again...
I remember when we hugged that night. I just wish I made it clear, that I wanted you, Brandon.
At least I should’ve put my arms on your shoulders.
I was scared to make a move that night.
... I still am.
I wish I looked over and kissed you at least once.
Now it's too late. I wish I let you stay in bed with me for the night. No more being lil bitches.
After we said bye and you went on your way.
It feels really shitty thinking about this from time to time.
I want to tell you everything. I miss you in my life.
Why does it stick?
If you see this, somehow by fate, I just hope you know who it is…