Dear... The Universe
I want to live.
My dream is to buy a large plot of land. To build my partner and I a lovely, cozy cottage just for us and our pets. With a little pond next to a large tree in the front yard, with a coop for the family of ducks, and a small garden on the side.
I want to build other cottages around ours to gift to our family and friends, so we can all live in our own little community of those who mean the most to us.
Where I can just crochet and bake, and listen to music and paint, and sell my artistry instead of working an 8+ hour shift where I only get 5 hours of sleep a night and have pains that don't go away.
I want to live like I'm in a fantasy world, I think it's kind of silly but it's a dream of mine that I know I'll never be able to accomplish.
My rights to my own body have been stripped from me, my people are led by hatred. And, if I don't take my own life then someone else will. And not just by death.
I'm so scared. I want my partner to hug me. To kiss me. To comfort me. I don't know if I can do this anymore.
I don't want to die. I want to live. So badly. What do I do Universe. Please help me. Please guide me. I want to live and live the life I deserve and want with the person I love and the people we hold dear. Please. Please. I'm begging.