Dear... Myself
What is wrong with you?
What happened to you?
Where is that proud confident girl who dint care a rat’s ass about anyone's opinion?
Where is the girl who was so talented that people thought she was a genius?
Where is that cheerful smile, that lovely friend, that courage to fight against the world?
Where did you lose yourself and become so vulnerable?
Do you know how much i miss you right now?
Come back. Please come back. I don't care about any other person in the world coming back except for you.
I don't want love anymore, I don't want appreciation anymore, I don't want to be with everyone, anymore.
Come back. Take me out of this corner where I have been crying unshed tears for the past 5 years. I don't want to run away anymore. I don't want to hide feel ashamed or regretful anymore.
I have lost you somewhere and I can feel that in every word I have doubted after I spoke them. You wouldn't bother. You would still say what you feel and let others deal with it the way they wanted to...
I'm tired of doubting each step, of doubting my values, of doubting my intention.
I never felt myself be evil before or hurtful, but today I doubt myself for helping someone. What are my motives? What do I want to be doing this? What is that I should have done that I didn’t? Am I selfish? Am I not capable of love? Do I expect too much? Or am I a pushover who has no thought of her own? Am I desperate for acceptance? Am I worthy of anything?
I am wounded by bullets unknown... I'm crippled by fears untold... Help me out of this abyss.. . Please I'm begging...
Come back.