Dear... Person I Miss So Much
2020 has really turned into something awful. At the beginning of the year I made a terrible mistake and I lost someone very special to me due to that mistake.
I started college, but things were cancelled due to covid-19. Next Monday I will return to classes. I don’t feel prepared. I feel stressed about everything that is coming. I’m grateful that I managed to get into college but I feel stressed out. I don’t know if I will be able to make it.
To add to all of this, I feel so lonely, but at the same time... empty. I really don’t feel much lately. It feels like... nothing positive is coming.
I feel terrible about feeling like this because I know people would wish to be healthy like I am. But I can’t help it. Everyday is a battle. And the more it goes, the less it seems worth fighting for…
Hope is gone, whoever is reading this. I don’t even know if someone will read this.
Like Roger Waters wrote on The Wall: Is there anybody out there?