Dear... Mister
I just don’t understand why you make me feel the way I do.
I have never given my full attention to anyone like I have done to you. I let my guard down and that’s my fault. I should’ve told you how I felt when you gave me the chance but I was just scared and I really don’t know how to express my feelings and I do it in such an awkward way.
To be honest, I was just scared of getting my feelings hurt but that seemed to have already happened. So you can’t prevent those type of things from happening.
Maybe it was an eye opener on what I really need to be focusing on.
I just am thinking about you all the time. I feel like I’m going insane because it’s just not safe how much I think and worry about you. Why? Idk.
I just don’t understand what you wanted or want from me. If I was not what you wanted then why keep entertaining me.