Dear... My Aries Baby Chicken
I want you to know how much I love you, first of all, and how much I respect and care about you. Without you I would not be who I am right now and I need you to know that. I fear we spend too much time together, but then again I can't get enough of you. I'm never sick of you, but sometimes I need to see myself as well and that's often hard to do when we spend so much time together. It's like we morph ourselves into each other and we lose sight of who we are individually. I don't know, maybe I'm speaking for myself.
Today we bickered and argued all day. We needed space but neither of us wanted to say it until it was too late and I was already halfway home. We didn't talk this one out, and I wish we had - but I'm also happy to be by myself for the night and I feel somewhat guilty about it. I don't want to feel guilty about wanting to spend time alone... and sometimes you make me feel this way. You say I'm leaving, walking away, giving up - when in reality I just can't be the one who picks fights with you. We're better than that, we're more mature. Sometimes it's just better to leave things unspoken and give our hearts the space we need to think for ourselves and not out of anger or annoyance.
I love you so much. I hope we can talk about this in the morning. We have too much potential. I feel too much for you. But I also must take care of myself. I'm in a new place and I know not many. You are all I have and that scares me, but it's also very assuring. You have me. You always have my back and I love you for that. I have to have my own back though, or I'll never grow, learn, and experience the proper way.
That's all for now. I'll try to reach you again tomorrow. Have a peaceful night.