Dear... Ocean
I just don't want to write empty letters, composed with confused feelings and emotions and just for the sake of vocalizing what I’m feeling. I want to write a letter when I finally understand why this happened. When I truly love and accept myself. When I promise to never allow myself to be placed in that situation. By the time I have a change of heart, then I'll write another letter just for you.
We were perfect, way back in 2017. Your smile can really complete my day. I just love it when you laugh or giggle, it really is charming. I was pretty sure that we were gonna last really long. Yet I know something was off but I turned a blind eye on it, unfortunately it has been eating me every time I think of it. Maybe I just clouded my vision of you instead of noticing the red flags from the start. Was blinded by "love" since I seriously thought you were the one.
There were days where I had this feeling that I needed to vent out this pain and emptiness, assuming that maybe it'll help me sort these feelings out.
I'll wait for the day when I can finally say, admit and accept that this breakup is really for the best. Because along the way I have been losing pieces of me for you. I felt empty at the end of the day, never even left anything for myself. By the day I finally am able to lift myself up and be strong by my own, maybe I'll message you. Just one last message, thanking you about this whole ghosting thing.
But right now, I'll just allow myself to feel the pain and try not to avoid feeling it. I'll be a new woman. A much better, confident and strong one.