Dear... Dad
I'm so sorry for everything I've done to you.
I hurt you because it was easier for me to handle, and that's not okay. I know I was young and I know it was his fault this ever even happened, but if I had the chance to go back in time and change one thing in my life, I would have stood up to him and gone to live with you.
Everything in my life pointed towards being with you, but for some reason, I didn't believe it in my heart. This has been the worst year of my life, and it's because you're not here, and that's my fault.
I miss you every day and every day I wish that I had the strength to go back to you, but I still can't. I hurt you because I'm afraid of getting hurt. I hurt you every single day because I can't muster up enough strength to stop hurting you. And I'm so sorry, leaving you is my biggest regret ever and it always will be.
I'm so sorry for everything and I'm sorry I can't say this to you in person, I just can't, because you'll just be even more hurt.
I love you so much