Dear... J
If I am being honest on here right now, I really miss you J.
I need you so much, I am so used to people walking out of my life but when you left me, I was broken. The sad part was that I knew I cannot replace you. You are all my thoughts, everything I think about.
Why me... What did I ever do to you to be in the place that we are right now? You and I, we are so complicated. You always block me but, for some strange reason never keep me blocked. And yes I know whoever it is reading this right now is thinking, "Well, why haven't you blocked him?" The thing is I tried to, I have tried to block him out of everything in my life. But, it just seems to never have worked well for me. He isn't like any other boys that I have ever met. He is my soulmate. He is my twin flame, he is just my everything man. I will never care about someone else like I ever have for J. He will always hold a special place in my heart that nobody will ever be near.
Thank you for giving me memories that I will stare at my ceiling thinking about losing sleep, thank you for being the shoulder I literally cried on when I felt like I was dying and just seriously, thank you for once coming into my life and being my best friend. I will always and forever love you and choose you over anybody that I know.