Dear... My Ex
I wonder if you still think of me.
I know you are busy with your life by the beach in California, but I wish you would still talk to me. When we broke up, I was under the impression you would still be in my life. I feel so hurt that you no longer respond to my messages. I thought I was someone important to you and I have done so much for you. You got my hopes up saying you will visit me soon, but I guess I was not able to call your bluff.
You were the best relationship I ever had. I was able to learn to put myself first and really push myself to get outside of my comfort zone. I am living for myself for the first time in a really long time. I am skateboarding without you, I moved into a gorgeous new home, and going back to school with the intention to change lives.
I just did not understand why you moved out there. What was so special about being in California? You quit your job, bummed with me until you got a job out there with no real plan. It felt like you were running away from something, not to something.
I feel like you only dated me out of convenience. I just feel used. I am just so angry at you now and I think I kinda hate you. I wish I had no feelings for you. I wish everything would not hurt so much. I have accomplished so much and experienced so many things since you left and I wanted to share these moments with you, but I know you do not feel the same.
I love you and I never want to get in the way of your happiness and growth. I need to have you do the same for me. I need to move forward and not on.
So, I have to say goodbye to you now.