Dear... The 16 Year Old Me
I'm so sorry that I couldn't become the person that you would like to be.
Or even worse, I'm so sorry that I've become the person that you would find so pathetic.
You will achieve your dream of going to another land, far away from your hometown. However, I doubt the ecstasy would last for long.
Your relationships with your current close friends will fail. You will gain some new acquaintances, lose contact with some, and fortunately, still stay in touch with some.
You will still be lonely. You won't have anyone with whom you can bare your true self. You will still be an awkward coward that couldn't take the first step in socializing.
You hate hypocrites, you don't want to be judgemental, you want to be straight-forward and free-spirited. Sadly, the exact opposite is what this future you will be.
You will feel sad a lot. You will find yourself loathsome constantly. You will feel guilty against your parents, or pretty much everyone around you, for that you fake your spoken words too frequently.
You will realize that you are not special, will have a very hard time coping. You will never be that cool person you've always wanted to be.
So, sorry.