Dear... Void
We had plans to go together. You disappeared one day and everything I knew was not.
The world turned upside down. I didn't trust anything. I had always lived in the grey. Morality, right and wrong, the way things worked... was subjective, was complicated. But on that day, I lost all sense of what it meant to be human.
Abandonment.
Then you carried on. All contact cut. Like you never existed. Like it never happened.
Was that the only way you knew how to leave?
You look happy now. In the one or two photos I could not easily find online.
Though I told others the words (thought I meant it sometimes too), somehow now I know that you were the only one (so far). When you walked in the room, that first night we met, I felt something instant and different than I've ever felt. When I placed that cold beer bottle between your legs. Don't get me wrong, I don't believe in "the one" or "love at first sight."
If I think about love, I know I loved you.