Dear... God
I have had one of the most continuous and terrible emotional rides for the last couple of weeks.
These days have made me think about who I am, who I want to be and who I could have been if things were fine in the past. And the thought that hurts me more is that there is practically no one I can talk about what I feel inside and this results in me destructing myself.
I hate most of the things about myself. But the one that tops my list is overthinking about everything and holding it all for a long long time. I can't easily let go of things. I have made my luck even worse by thinking about this stuff again and again.
I want to end living like this. I want to change my life completely change. I want to help myself. Please god help me help myself.