Dear... Lucas
Lucas is not your real name but it is as close to the real one as it gets.
Honestly, I could be writing you an actual letter, an email, heck even a text message. But that scares me, so rather than doing that I will be writing you a letter, in fact, this letter.
I don't think I ever got the chance to tell you how much I actually liked you. That summer was our summer and when I look back at it I can only smile and secretly love it.
It sucks that it went the way it did and I wish I would have admitted to my own feelings earlier so things would have been clearer for you.
Not that I think it would've changed our relationship, though. You see I did really like you and you made me intensely happy, but I was not ready for a relationship back then and neither am I now.
I am glad that, even though we have been through a lot in these last two years, we have grown back together. I am glad I can call you my friend again.
But I must admit that I often think you might still have feelings for me and, not only me, but mostly the people around me tell me that all the time.
If that is the case I hope you don't admit to it anytime soon. However selfish that may sound, I know that I won't be able to say yes and I don't want to ruin our good friendship.
I hope to have you in my life for a long, long time. For now as friends and maybe in the future as lovers.
Please never change and know that I love you.