Dear... The Person Who Made Me Believe Forever Was Possible
Before you, I never understood how people could spend the rest of their lives with one person. Then you came along. We reconnected after a decade and it felt like all the stars aligned just for us to meet once again.
The chemistry was instantaneous and unmistakable. We would spend hours with each other. Stayed up til dawn to catch the sunrise and I still wouldn't want to leave... But I got scared. Things were going too fast and I had my doubts. I jumped the gun and thought I'd get in first before my heart got broken. I said goodbye even though I wanted to stay. It hurt me more than you'll ever know. Now I'll have to deal with comparing everyone else to you and what we had.
For the record, I wanted you... all of you. No one has made an impact on me as much as you have. While you defined my happiness for a fleeting moment, I'll always carry the memories, heavy in heart.. I miss you.
I still wonder if I made the right decision. It breaks my heart every day thinking what we could have had. What we did have was soo good, but at the same time, I still question whether it was as real for you as it was for me.
I've learnt that my biggest insecurity is doubting whether I am enough. I just needed to know you'd never give up on me. I just needed to know if forever was on the cards for you too.. but now I'll never know.