Dear... My Chinese Sun
Hi, How are you? Have you been doing well? Are you eating and sleeping well? I hope you are.
I miss you a lot. I do not know why but I have been thinking about you a lot from the day I met you. I do not know what is it that made me think of you a lot, maybe because you were the sun that has given light to my long dark days. I mean, I was so sad for the longest time in my life, then you came.
We were never attracted to each other at first glance but because of my relative who teased us, you tried to play along. I liked it, I was carried away by your smile that shines brightly as the sun. I cannot help but give you my smile in return.
I always love your straightforwardness, your happy soul. I hated how you played along too, I was so afraid to even give you my number even when you asked for it for who knows, maybe you are just doing it for my relatives sake.
We met the day after too, and still, as a shy type of person, I am not able to strike a conversation with you. Sorry I couldn't answer you back properly because the only thing I can hear that time is my heartbeat.
I know that we will never end up together, I do not have any plans of telling you how I feel too. There is just too much in between us, that whatever we do, we can never ever reach each other. I just want you to know that up to this day, I still long for you, I want to know more about you, I want to laugh with you, I want to stare at your eyes and smile at you again. But of course, there are feelings that we only need to feel and never act on.
This letter might help me to let go of you, maybe a form of goodbye. We are like parallel lines, destined to meet but never meant to cross paths. I will wish you to have a happy life, greater success, and be married to the person you love and have a happy family.
As for me, I will try to find myself, love myself, get up again. Thank you for being my temporary sun who has given me light and warmth, I'll do it alone again from here.
Until our next life my sun. I will make sure I will be worthy for you on our next life, and i will find you first!