Dear... God
I'm stupid for writing this letter, I know that it’s useless but still I just want to tell you what I really feel.
The life that I’ve had up to now is a roller coaster, you can understand what it means. I’ve had my bad days and good days; I was happy but then, at the same time, sad and lonely. I‘ve had all sorts of people around me, but I still feel alone. I just can't feel the connection.
I know that what I'm saying is nonsense, but I feel so empty. I just can't understand my purpose on earth. I've been meaning to ask about my purpose but being the way I am now, I'm quite useless don't you think?
I've been thinking that you (God) wasted creating me when there's so many more people who are much better, but did not get a chance at life. I'm such a useless, unimportant, bad person. I don't deserve this life I have now. I've been wasting all these years of my life to nothing. I don't think I can do anything in this life.
God please, if I die can you grant my request? In my next life if ever I get a chance, can you surround me with people who truly love me? A loving, caring and supportive family, caring friends and a faithful partner. Give me courage to voice my feelings and be useful to those I love. In my next life I want to feel what it is to be truly loved. A simple and peaceful life surrounded with all those people I love and who love me.
If I do good in this life, can you grant me this wish? I know that I'm a very bad girl for not going to church and not praying everyday, but still I know deep inside my heart that you're real and listening.
Please... If I die, would grant me my wish?