Dear... Si
I know you don't think about me, but I miss you. You're my best friend. I love you. We all miss you.
It's weird without your Star Wars jokes. Bella cries over you sometimes. She does it quietly though, in her room at night. I cry too. She doesn't talk about you but she misses you. She loved you too. In a different way than the rest of us. Alexander tries to be there for her. He's happy though, with Macaulay.
They haven't gotten married yet, funny right? Macaulay might come to talk to you, or just see you. So if you see an extravagant gay man outside your school, don't be weirded out. Mom and Lucas miss you too. They wish you could come to their wedding. It's gonna be in upstate New York, at the farmhouse. Jason would never admit it, but he feels your loss. He's trying for me, but I know you guys had some bromance going on. You'll be happy to know he has fully stepped into the caring boyfriend role.
You knew my feelings before anyone else. You knew I could never be with you because he was the only one for me. You knew me better than I knew myself.
May has taken over the council role. She still hangs out at that Chinese restaurant and is dating the DJ. She still is upset about you. And Jordy. Lilia took over the hotel, people listen to her, it's good. We're doing better. We're just missing you.
I talked to your mom and sister the other day. Everything's back to normal for you. I hope you're happy Si. I really do. What you did that night changed our lives. We are all forever grateful.