Dear... Monster
Just thinking about writing this letter makes me emotional. It makes me wonder how we ended up this way, five years down the drain.
As much as I truly wanted to hate you, I can’t deny the fact that you loved me. I have seen this with the way you took care of not only me but of my family as well. We’ve been through a lot - highs and lows - but why did it have to be this way? I know you have been asking me for another chance, to give you this year to rebuild yourself, but how sure are you that you’re not going to resort to old ways again? I’ve been hurt beyond repair and it would be so difficult to trust you again.
I don’t think I can go through that situation again with so much doubts in my mind. It would make me question everything. As much as I’d like to see you improve and redeem yourself, unfortunately, I don’t want you to do it with me.
I just wanted to ask, what happened? When and how did it start? What are the truths? When did you start lying to me? As much as I’d like to ask and know the answers to these, I chose not to ask because I know it’s gonna hurt me all the more. When have you started keeping things from me?
I admit that I also have my fair share of mistakes. I was not a perfect girlfriend and I’ve hurt you as well. But I can’t keep on going with a relationship that’s full of hurt, lies, and anger.
I wish you the best on your recovery and I wish you well on your journey. We still have to go on our separate ways, however, and let time heal all wounds.
May God bless you. Let’s pray for each other’s healing.