Dear... Heartless Husband
He left me when I was at my weakest and when I was going through depression and desperately seeking his care. He chose to be with her when we were struggling. He disrespected my parents and didn’t appreciate their effort for him. He didn’t even give me a decent greeting for my birthday - not even telling people to greet me but announced his workmate’s birthday to the whole company for them to greet her instead!
He is so cold and so selfish, he is a cheater and continues to be friends and friendly with her. He’s made her feel so secure and protected throughout all of this and has been keeping her normal instead of fighting for ours. He has failed to stay faithful. He made me feel so insecure about myself and he’s told people that I’m the enemy, that I’m manipulative.
He didn’t go to the hospital with me when I was bleeding and in pain and chose to be with his friends instead. He only fought for his career, it was so easy for him to just give up. He’s so maladjusted and will never be able to communicate his feelings with me. He is not prayerful and does not have a relationship with the Lord. He’s unforgiving and resentful against me. He’s not understanding, he just gave up. He blames me for everything, he made me look like a fool, he lied to my face, he made me feel crazy.
He made me feel so frustrated about my life that I wanted to end it and actually attempted to do so. He continues to be so unkind to me, he doesn’t care enough to tell others to watch over me. He doesn’t deserve the love I can give, he doesn’t deserve the kindness I’ve shown, the effort I’ve done to try to fix things, he just cares about his friends and his career — never about me.
I don’t care anymore. I deserve so much better. I am worthy of the same kind of love that I can give. I am worthy of the forgiveness and fight he clearly doesn’t want to give. I am worthy of genuine happiness. I don’t hate him but I don’t love him anymore. I don’t see a future with him anymore. I can’t imagine being with him anymore.
I envision a life on my own now... where I’m happy and relieved of this heartless person in my life. I’ll work on that now. Forget whatever people will say about me or about us... the truth is he failed, and he’s okay with it.
So forget it. I don’t want to be with him anymore. I don’t care anymore. The fact is, I am not even crying or saddened with what I’m typing out now. I won’t save your career anymore. I won’t do anything else to protect you anymore. If anybody asks, I’ll tell the truth. That he is an insecure, selfish, heartless person without any balls to be honest with his wife. He’s without any spine to stand up for anything, without any heart to do the right thing. So weak! So broken and I don’t want to be part of any of this because it only makes me feel bad. He’s had things given to him so easily, dropped on his lap, accepted things as they come.
So here comes his new life. Goodbye.