Dear… Life
I am really not sure what to write. I know everyone have problems in their lives. I also have problems in my life... a lot of problems. But one thing that I learned the past few years is that life is really unpredictable. The more you want to control the more the unpredictable our life becomes. You know the one word which I hate the most is expectations. The more people expect from you the more you want to fulfil them and if you fail to do so the more disappointed you become. It is really the story of my life. I always wanted to be able to fulfil everyone's expectations. My parents expectations, my siblings, my teachers and literally anyone who knows me and by doing so I forgot what really wanted from my life. And when these people get disappointed I lost confidence in me. I am scared that I will not be able to do anything in my life. The worst fear of my life came true last year when I really couldn't bear to see my parents disappointed in me. After that day I was not able to be the way I was. I lost something in me. I just wanted them to be happy. I literally did everything they want from me my whole life. But then too I was not able to make them or me happy. But now want to do something, find myself and most importantly I want to become the best version of me.