Dear... Letters Anonymous
I am tired of escaping my reality.
Today, I feel I need to stop. I need to stop being so full of myself. I need to watch, listen, think and repeat, just in silence.
Twenty-two years of my life, I did not once take a step back. Every time I was haunted by a specific approaching truth, I would find someone to hide behind and eventually feed on them like a parasite. I never intended to hurt anyone in the process but I did and here I am.
I have lost myself, I have lost my best friend and family refuses to leave, thank god! Today, I took a decision for myself and I am scared it might not work out like the other plans I have tried executing in the past. But I am hopeful too.
For the first time in my life, I am looking towards myself with hope and not plain disgust. I want to love myself the way I have never loved anyone.