Dear... My Chinese Sun
It is Christmas Eve and here I am thinking about you. Thinking if I should sent you a greeting or not. Strongly, my mind says no. I guess, that is the right decision to make.
I am nobody in your eyes. I do not want to feel so stupid anymore. I do not want you thinking that I still think of you these days. I know my place, I know I am just a memory of convenience. I have been trying to avoid you these past few weeks. Trying my best not to have a personal encounter. I do not want to see you again, not anymore. I want to move forward even with the littlest courage that I have. I am tired wondering if you even remember me too. I am tired of being a nobody. I am so tired. I am trying my best to stop whatever feeling that is left inside of me. Though small, this feeling is like a small flame in a cold and windy place that when given warmth, will grow bigger than I could imagine.