Dear... My Love
My love,
There was so much I wanted to do but never did. I was so young back then, it feels. I was so foolish. How I clung to something that just couldn't be saved, and how I am grateful that you finally made us let go.
I'll always still think of it as you and me, as us. Not just you or me separately. We were together in a space, in a world where we communicated. You were there with me. You shared a part of yourself with me. I wish I had taken it. I wish I gave more and let myself be given more. I wish I came to you openly.
It’s all lost, though. We can't have that. How I saw a world in your eyes, in your arms. That feeling of love. It is so strong. I feel like I could share my whole life with you.
But it is over, and it's okay. I miss you so much, darling. I'm grieving so much. I've never had anyone close to me die, so this is the closest I've ever felt to that. The pain I feel, and the wistful resolution I must make, knowing you won't be around anymore. How I loved you, darling. How I loved you.