Dear... Friend
I want to f**k her so badly, but it isn't her that I want to fuck, is it?
She knows how to sell herself. She knows what she's working with. Is this how women manoeuvre through the social world? Their seductive power is too much for someone like me that has no experience with that social class. It's a great form of manipulation. She can seduce my soul out of my body. But can she do that to men that have just as much and even more seductive power than her? I wonder what it looks like when she tries to use her seductive power on men stronger than her? She probably feels just the way I do right now, terribly weak.
Does she really know what she's doing? Is this how it works? Now that I've written a bit about it, I don't feel the need to f**k her as strongly as I did when she was here. I know that it's just a game. She doesn't want me and I don't want her. It's a game that we play because it's a game that's presented. It never was my game to play. I thought I played it as a kid, but I am know where near as elite as she is. I wonder how she was growing up?