Dear... Love
Ever felt hopeless? Useless? Worthless? Yeah I get it, you don’t want to talk about that. What’s the point if people are just going to tell you, “don’t worry about it”, “it’ll be fine” or “forget about it”. Well, let me tell you, it’s not that easy. Once you start feeling like this you might think there’s no going back, no exit, no nothing; just you and the pain. Your heart is being broken by the people you love... by yourself.
Ever felt like love was useless? Not meant for you? I can’t even begin to express how I’ve wanted love to just disappear these last few days, that feeling that always seems to hurt me time and time again. It could be by him, just the mere thought of him or it could be family with all their feuds and all the drama, all the hatred, or just myself not being able to trust in what I want; not being able to love myself, not being able to be me.
I want to stop loving, just for a while. Maybe that way I won’t hurt so much, right? I just can’t take it anymore. I can’t take the pain. I can’t keep thinking about these things. I want to forget. So what if I just pretend that I’m heartless? Will that drive the negative energy away? So many questions, yet little answers. Such a disappointment. Such a cruel world. In order to be happy, we have to go through this pain. Pathetic.