Dear... The One I Love
Do you even know how much I think about you?
It’s been 10 long years and I cant get you out of my mind.
What are you doing? How is life treating you? Are you getting everything you want to from life?
Do you even for a brief second in your day think about me?
Do you remember me? Of course you know me, we talk every now and then.
But do you miss or remember me like I remember you?
Am I just delusional or obsessed? Do I really love you or am I fixated on the thought of the one I know as you?
I try to get over my feelings and then you reappear and I'm stuck right where I started.
My heart bubbles again, I smile again, I wish we were more again.
Do you know how many compatibility tests, flames and matches I have played with your name and mine?
Do you know how, when the results are good, I smile and when bad I feel horrible?
10 years, I would pass it off as a crush if it were fleeting but its been 10 years.
I miss you. Don’t be nice, sweet and kind to me ever again. Please be a horrible person to me.
So I can get over you and move on, move on to a new beginning, to make something worthy of myself.
I don’t want to feel worthless anymore.
So please. Have mercy on my heart.