Dear... My Love
This time apart from you has been quite difficult. At first the realization that we had something otherworldly, created just for you and me, was the highlight of my life. But soon my ego took over my heart and soul, and doubts, fears, and thoughts of "what if" began to plague my mind.
I know you have tried to connect with me at some point and I want you to know that I love you too... not knowing what is going to happen now is torturous. Knowing that you are near but I cannot be close to you is even worse. I know neither of us were expecting to be in each other’s lives like this, but I'm so glad I met you.
I want nothing more than to tell you how I feel, but given our circumstances I fear that such a move would put your career in jeopardy. I would never do something like that to you, ever. I see how hard you have worked to get to where you are and I'm so proud of you. I feel so blessed to have experienced such a beautiful thing with you; before I did not even think that such a connection was possible.
Thank you for extending your love to me. I care about you deeply and want nothing more than your happiness. I want you to know that I will always be here for you. Even if your happiness is not with me... it will hurt, not going to lie. But you being happy is more important to me than my own happiness. I want you to know that.