Dear... My Ex Best Friend
I miss you. I miss our sleepovers when we would laugh until our lungs hurt or when we would have our deepest conversations and when we would cry on each others shoulders.
I miss walking into your house and being greeted by your mom and dad. I miss you coming over whenever you wanted and you talking to my mom and you two being close.
I miss talking to you when I needed someone the most. I miss our conversations about boys and spilling all the tea about people at our school.
I hate seeing you everyday and you walking past me like i'm a stranger, all the memories come back to me when I see you. The memories like when we would go to Dunkin’ Donuts to do our homework and when you came over when I was depressed and dragged me out of bed.
I hate that you feel like you have been approved by everyone. I hate that people's opinions matter to you because they don't. I hate that you feel like you need a boy to go on in life. I hate how you hang out with the people that never liked us or that we didn't like because they were rude. I hate not being able to see your smile everyday, I miss my best friend.
It sucks that you don't care anymore. I miss the fact that we would hang out everyday and that everyone wanted to be as close as we were. I miss our adventures that we would go on and the new people we meet. I miss your boldness and how you weren't scared to say what was on your mind. I miss all of our stupid jokes that only we understood. I wish you would have kept your promise when you said we would never drift apart and that we would stay true to our selves, but now you aren’t yourself and it is slowly getting hard to recognize you.
We promised that we would stay best friends but you broke your promise. I miss when we would blast music in your basement and dance around everywhere. I miss going to your dances, I miss when we would spend every holiday together. I know we aren’t close any more but I still feel like I need to tell you everything but I cant because you don’t care anymore.
I miss you being the person I depended on. I miss you a lot. I go through our old photos and all I do is smile, I still think about our old conversations and just laugh because of all the stupid things we said, some memories make me laugh at how stupid we were when were were together, but other memories break me inside because I know we will never be that close again.
I hate when people ask me about you because I don’t know how to reply. I’m upset with myself that I let our friendship get to where it is right now. I hope you know that I will forever be here if you need to talk because I know you still have my number. Even though things have changed I will forever keep my promise.
I hate how we used to be inseparable but now we don’t even talk. But things happen, I will forever watch our videos where we laughed uncontrollably and look at the pictures we took and see how much fun we had.
It hurts when you walk past me as if we didn't stay up until 4 am telling secrets and talking about everything. I miss my other half, I miss my best friend.
I love you to the moon and back.